Summer 2011 Rocks!!!
I haven't written a blog in over a month, the whole point of blogging was to practice writing to the world, not just privately. However, I had an epiphany this summer and have been very busy just trying to enjoy my life. Something I had forgotten to do in the last several years.
For a long while now, my life has been filled with high aspirations and to-do lists that I felt the had to be completed at all costs without consideration to everything else. They defined my behavior. I had to work three jobs, I had to get straight A's in school, I had to graduate with as many possible certificates in the shortest period of time, I had to keep my house spotless, I had to... had to... had to... blah blah blah.
What I failed to do, was have to enjoy time with my friends and family. I failed to keep in touch with my friends, never going out socially with any. I failed to visit my mother, though she was ill. I failed to enjoy time with my husband because I always had things on my list... things I felt had to be completed. No more though... it was like I woke up and realized that I just missed a big chunk of my life, waiting to have nothing left on my to-do list, before I could do anything enjoyable.
Now I have come to realize that there has to be a happy balance. Yes, I have to work three jobs, because my family needs me too. Yes, I have to finish college because I promised my mother and I have come too far to quit now. And yes, my house does need to be cleaned more than usual because I have five dogs and it can get pretty gross. But, I can do other things... have fun... be young, and the world isn't going to come to an end.
This might seem like common sense to everyone, but I just got it. Literally, this summer it finally hit me and I haven't been happier. Hopefully, when the next semester starts I can continue this happy balance... not feeling forced through everything in my life, but wanting and enjoring the events.